Friday, September 30, 2011


I know I know. I'm very slow on the smart phone band wagon, but the thing is hubby and I are always saving money, that we rarely buy ourselves new things.

You see I'm not one of those girls that has to have the latest everything. I don't care if I don't have new clothes, shoes or bags. Don't get me wrong, I love fashion and all that, it's just I have always wanted to spend my money on other stuff, or save for bigger purchases, like a house and car. I used to work in Witchery in Sydney, in one of their busy and super pretty stores. I would buy pretty new things all the time. I just love their bag's, and still have way too many of them....

Hubby and I like to save, what can I say, we like to budget. We have a mortgage and we don't want to have that hanging over our head's forever.

Well anyway, I have had my mobile since about 2002. It was a good phone, but it has started to misbehave! Sometimes I wouldn't get phone calls, when people have been saying they were trying to call me for hours. Or texts that also went missing, or that I couldn't text anyone.  Hubby decided that enough was enough and bought me a new phone, as an early birthday pressie. A pretty white Apple iPhone! My birthday is in November so i'm not complaining about getting presents now!!!

I love it so much. I also know that the newer iPhone 5 is due out soon. But I don't care. I wanted it for all the smart phone functions. I am just super happy that I have a mobile that works now. And that I can instagram, tweet, facebook, download apps.....

Follow me on my tweety, click on the twitter icon on the left :D

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Little G 12 weeks Today

My little G is already 3 months old!!!

I love how you:

Throw yourself back after a feed, with your little arm up, look at me and smile, like that was the best meal ever! 

Tummy Time! You love it. Sometimes you struggle and grunt, but your very good at it.

Smile. Hubby and I call it smizing cause you really smile with her eyes.

Will suck almost anything, your hand, fingers, whole fist but only the right side, or little Sophie the giraffe.

Let out a couple of giggles to now! Too precious. I can't wait for you to really giggle. Right now, your not sure where it comes from LOL. 

Always have to be in your bouncy chair to poo LOL.

Are babbling to yourself all the time now. I wonder if you have imaginary friends already?

Make me smile even when you have a sad face.

I can't wait to see what other magical moments we are going to share my sweetie xoxo

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Mother's Group and Roasted Eggplant Dip

I live in a area of NSW, that reminds me of summer bay, but slightly larger. We have a surf club, that has a good cafe attached. Beautiful beaches and super weather most of the time. The only problem is that there wasn't a mother's group or anything to do for newborns, or new mum's.

Yesterday I joined a couple mum's that have put together their own little mumma's group. They meet every Friday, but yesterday was so lovely that a few of us decided to meet then.

This was my first time at a mother's group. I was very apprehensive. I haven't had the best encounters with other mother's where I live. And I was so worried about little G's behaviour. I thought no doubt she will scream her lungs out, (which she did!) or I'm going to feel weird or awkward about breast feeding her in public. I just can't get as comfortable with it, as I would like to be. Also Little G feeds forever! So I find public feeding a bit awkward. She can sit on one breast for an hour, easily! So if she is lazy it takes forever to feed her. Also there is nothing worse than a creepy guy sitting nearby. It makes the whole earth mother thing, pervy! BLEG.

It was so nice to get out of the house, and have a good old fashioned gas bag about being a new mother! That things like cooking or prepping for a nice dinner, kinda fall by the way side.

My go to dish, during winter or summer is salad. I love it. I could eat it all day. I love to come up with different things to add to it, or eat with it. I picked up an eggplant, and a loaf of sourdough on the way home. Almost every week I make a tahini dip, sometimes just plain tahini and yoghurt, or I will add a vege blended, like zucchini, or potato. Yesterday I felt like a roasted eggplant dip. Perfect with the sourdough and a massive salad.

1/2 eggplant
1 tablespoon tahini
3 tablespoons Greek yoghurt
1 teaspoon sumac
1 teaspoon olive oil
1/2-1 lemon juice depending on how tart you like it
salt and pepper

Sprinkle eggplant and garlic a little olive oil, then wrap in foil. Roast in a 180C oven for about 30 minutes.

Whizz all the ingredients together in a blender until smooth.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Why is Motherhood a Competition?

Why is everything about motherhood a competition? Even before having the baby, being pregnant and having the baby is a competition.

While I was pregnant I was extremely ill, for the whole pregnancy. To the point where I had to take drugs to help me though the whole day, AND night. It was exhausting. In the first trimester i thought i was going to die. I threw up so much that i lost too much weight. I was the smallest i had been for a long time. I went from about 52 kilos dropping to about 42!

It got better from about 6 months onwards. I started to feel a little human again. I still threw up everyday, and sometimes at night, but no where near as bad.

Then came time to have little G. And I can honestly say my birthing experience was fantastic. I look back on it and smile at how lucky I am. Walking down the hall of a birthing suite is frightening. All you hear is screaming, there are mother's to be pacing around wanting to get the baby the frick out! Not to mention midwives and doctors running around. When I got to my room, i was pooing myself. I was so scared of how this baby was going to come out! I had thought about this moment for a long long time. You can't help it when you are pregnant. This was the moment. After reading so many birthing stories online, i was finally having my own. I was having quite a good time, I was talking to my midwives, eating those lovely chocolate caramel eclairs to keep my energy up. I was even burning an essential oil i made, specially for the birth. Don't get me wrong, at one point, I was sucking down that gas like no tomorrow, but the truth is, the pain comes and goes. I had a shower trying to help ease the pain of contractions when one of them hit me so hard, I knew I needed a epidural ASAP. After that I went back to being calm, and chatty.

A neighbour that I know who is a mum, was so rude, and made me feel so bad that I had such a good labour, only 6.5 hours, told me out right, she hated women like me. This is not the only time this has happened. I dropped the baby weight the same week, while in hospital. It's not like I did anything. I wasn't up to it, I'd had stitches etc. I just ate and breastfed the baby the whole time there. I'm just lucky I guess. I was now told, by another mother, that I had to eat well if I'm breast feeding. I was very offended. The one thing I do well is eat! I love food. I also like to walk and do yoga or meditation sometimes. I think I'm very healthy. I'm not a fitness freak at all, but I choose to look after myself through walking. I find it wonderful for mental health as well.

Why is it that when you look after yourself, your told you are not healthy? I pride on looking after myself and my husband. I strive to make us healthy balanced meals most of the time and enjoy doing so! Of coarse I love to bake, so a cupcake or slice of banana bread doesn't go astray either! I personally think it is all about balance. What's life with out icing??? I am sick to death of making excuses and not being able to be honest and be myself, for fear of being so harshly judged.

Don't even get me started on the whole breast feeding vs formula. We all know how important breastfeeding is, that is much better than formula. I breastfeed little G, but every now and then she gets formula. For me breastfeeding was excruciating in the first 4 weeks. I was crying all the time in agony.

I would rather go through labour over and over if it meant I didn't have to feel that pain again! Now it doesn't hurt at all, but it can be tedious. Sometimes the baby will sit there for 2 hours feeding! I feel chained to the couch. I find it difficult to go out with her, fearing that she'll need to eat, when I can't feed her. I'm not comfortable feeding her in public, mostly cause other people make you feel dirty. I would always cover up, but haven't managed to get the whole public feeding down pat yet anyway. So I take a formula bottle with me just in case. So far we haven't needed to use it. I have found the mother's room's in Westfields' a God send!

Why do we always have to compete with one another?

Why can't we just support each other, and be happy with our children's achievements, no matter how small?

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Tummy Time!

I am the proudest mumma today.

Little G and I do tummy time everyday. She loves it! She normally lifts her head slightly, but it is still to the side, and she drops her noggin cause it is still too heavy for her.

My little G, finally lifted her head to look at me today and gave me a little smile. I was so excited I didn't get a chance to take a pic of this. But I got a few to show my hubby!

It is such a shame that he misses out on so much that happen's with her :(

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Emmy's 2011

I think these ladies looked stunning at the Emmy's yesterday....These are my fav's out of what I saw.

Lots of red/oranges, black and soft shimmery colours like silver's and golds. Love all the glitter!!!! But I've never hated glittery things. I blame my Russian blood for loving all things glittery and shiny! 

 I love Evan Rachel Wood. She is stunning! Gwyneth dress was pretty, but I just don't like the midriff bit....
This is the best i've seen Kelly O look!

I almost bought a dress from Johanna Johnson in Paddington for my wedding... She has the most stunning gowns on display in the shop.

Cat is always pretty.

Sofia is my hubby's favourite actress.

Lea's dress was stunning from front on, but im not sure if I like the front and back detailing together.

Nina looked gorgeous, as always.

As did Kate. She doesn't get much wrong in my books, anymore. Even her make up and hair were glorious. Simple and stunning.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Pear and White Chocolate Chip Bread

Hi I'm Leah. I have to confess....I have OCD.

I love routine. Things have to be just so for me to feel 'right'.

I stayed at my in law's house last weekend, and noticed the toilet rolls were the wrong way round, so I went and changed them all. They have to have the paper on the top, not the bottom! Don't people know they have to have the pattern side up!!! hahahah!!

Don't get me wrong, I'm not too bad. My house isn't perfectly straightened and organised. Well it used to be, but I have different priorities right now. It is a messy, but organised chaos. Somethings just look to be way to overwhelming right now. But not my baking!

I noticed this this morning. I wanted to bake a pear bread for morning tea. The first step for me is lining the tin with baking paper. I like it just so. It has to be straight in the tin. I hate it when it is all over the place....mad right??? I know but I can't help it! I won't go nuts if it ends up crooked, I just don't feel right.

I even clean as I go. I hate a messy kitchen. I can't even start working in the kitchen unless it is clean.

I usually start the baking process, clutter free, for a clutter free mind, and sort of knowing what I'm going to bake. I then put it all together in my head before I get into the kitchen. I know this is crazy, but what can I say? Once I'm in the kitchen I know exactly what I want to do. The only thing is the measurements. I don't measure, much. I go by instinct and feel. Most of the time it works, others not so much. I love coming up with different breads all the time. This is half the fun!

This bread is wonderful if you have a love for white chocolate. It isn't too sweet, it has just the right amount of chocolate studded throughout the bread. Of coarse add as much as you want, remembering that white chocolate is super sweet!

1 1/2 cup wholemeal flour
1/4 cup coconut
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 cup white choc bits
1/2 cup vanilla sugar
2 medium pears whole not peeled
1/3 cup light olive oil
2 eggs
1 tablespoon sour cream

Blitz up the pears, until they are still chunky. Add the eggs, oil and sour cream. Blend until smooth, don't worry if there are a few pears chunks in the mix.

In a medium bowl add the flour, coconut, baking powder, cinnamon, choc bits and sugar. Mix these really well.

Add the wet mix to the dry, and mix until all the ingredients are incorporated.

Bake in a preheated 160C oven, for 55 minutes.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

My Sunday In Pic's

Hubby and I went to Thai Riffic, in Westfield Bondi, for our thai noodle fix.

Waiting for seafood satay noodles.

Little G happily sleeping while I stuffed my face with lots of rice noodles.
This is why I love Thai Riffic in Bondi, they are generous with the seafood!

Then we had coffee....
My beautiful little niece helped by eating the frothy tops off our cappuccinos!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

White Choc Mud Cake with Salted Caramel Icing

I have a dirty little secret.....I love white chocolate.

Since having my beautiful baby girl my taste buds have changed a lot. While pregnant there were a lot of things that made me so ill, I wasn't sure if I could look at them, let alone eat them again!

There was also a very long period where I could only stomach really bland food. Pasta with chicken and lemon, no flavours, cheese, or anything else added, was an almost every day/night occurrence.

But then my craving's directed me to try this. Im not sure what witchery had happened, I was in love. I had this almost everyday! To my horror, I'm starting to white chocolate!!! I even took a whole block of this to the hospital.

I would sneak little squares, and feel dirty and ashamed that I actually enjoyed it!

My  for white chocolate continues, so much so that I was really wanted to bake with it. I couldn't wait to try it out on a mud cake!

I made this for my hubby for his first father's day.

Adapted from Exclusively Food.

White Chocolate Mud Cake

200 grams white chocolate
150 grams butter
250 ml milk
1/2 cup vanilla sugar
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
2 eggs, room temperature
2/3 self raising flour
1 cup plain flour

Melt the chocolate, butter, milk and sugar in a small saucepan. Set aside to cool for about 15 minutes. Mix the eggs into the chocolate mix.
Sift the flours into a large bowl. Pour 1/2 the chocolate mix and stir so there are no lumps, then add the rest and mix. It's a pretty wet mixture, but this is perfect for mud cake.

baked for 45 minutes in 160C oven.

Salted Caramel icing

80 grams butter melted
1/3 cup brown sugar
2 tablespoons milk or cream
1 cup icing sugar
pinch of salt flakes

Mix all the icing ingredients together and spread generously on cake!

I also made a simple toffee for the cake, for a bit of added bitterness. It made the icing split a little cause it was too hot, still tasted great though!

Monday, September 5, 2011

My Sunday In Pic's

I woke up, really early and saw 'the bunny' outside my kitchen window. This little bunny has been visiting our street for about 3 months now. It is so cute watching the little kids in our street, run around trying to grab 'BUNNY!!'

Stealthy bunny

 Being Father's day today, I made my hubby brunch. Toasted pane de casa slice, crispy bacon, scrambled eggs with tomato and goats cheese, topped with spinach and rocket.
 I also made a white chocolate mud cake, topped with little bits of crunchy toffee.

Little G happily chewing on her 'sophie' toy.

Tired and well and truly ready for bed. Goodnight all xo.