Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Moving and Life Right Now
Forgive me Father for I have sinned......It has been far too long since I blogged.
I have been incredibly busy, living life, you would say. I honestly don't know how mum's with blogs, blog everyday, and so wonderfully too. They are witty, charming, serious and most importantly their blog posts are always there, everyday, a new post. Not at all boring and tedious.
I'm not like this.
If life gets a little crazy, I can sometimes shut down, cocoon if you will.
recently I felt like I have needed all of my energy.
I have had to deal with so much in the last couple months.
Moving, yep that's right! We finally moved into our own place, and I love it! I used to love moving, but the idea of having to unpack and wash and clean etc with a toddler is not a good idea.
I have some very sad personal news, someone very dear to me, is very ill. I can't even bring myself to type the words. Everyone is very positive and "staying strong" and hoping that soon, this said person will be his "normal" and healthy self.
I have had a little family craziness re: insanity to deal with. Mostly it is all so ridiculous and so tedious not even worth talking about. Yet again I need to learn to develop a thicker skin, and let the bullshit wash over me. I will have to learn to wake up and look at myself and say, "I'm a Great Wife and , Mother" like a mantra EVERYDAY, until i believe it, (even if others don't and verbalise it!)
And most importantly my little G's FIRST birthday. YEP FIRST. I can't believe it either. It has gone way too quickly and it is both exciting and sad.
I have also wanted to have another baby, but who knows. Its all a roll of the dice really.
It is so strange, i really wanted a baby the first time round, thinking all of the time that ONE would be enough, 2 or more is just craziness, or a blessing, which ever way you look at it :P
But since having little G my hormones are going crazy. I want MORE! It makes me feel so selfish and silly. I should be so grateful having a perfect little baby. Having another, when there are so many unwanted kids out there is just selfish....right??
Hopefully I will be able to post more soon xo.