Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Moving and Life Right Now




Forgive me Father for I have sinned......It has been far too long since I blogged.

I have been incredibly busy, living life, you would say. I honestly don't know how mum's with blogs, blog everyday, and so wonderfully too. They are witty, charming, serious and most importantly their blog posts are always there, everyday, a new post. Not at all boring and tedious.

I'm not like this.

If life gets a little crazy, I can sometimes shut down, cocoon if you will.

recently I felt like I have needed all of my energy.

I have had to deal with so much in the last couple months.

Moving, yep that's right! We finally moved into our own place, and I love it! I used to love moving, but the idea of having to unpack and wash and clean etc with a toddler is not a good idea.

I have some very sad personal news, someone very dear to me, is very ill. I can't even bring myself to type the words. Everyone is very positive and "staying strong" and hoping that soon, this said person will be his "normal" and healthy self.

I have had a little family craziness re: insanity to deal with. Mostly it is all so ridiculous and so tedious not even worth talking about. Yet again I need to learn to develop a thicker skin, and let the bullshit wash over me. I will have to learn to wake up and look at myself and say, "I'm a Great Wife and , Mother" like a mantra EVERYDAY, until i believe it, (even if others don't and verbalise it!)

And most importantly my little G's FIRST birthday. YEP FIRST. I can't believe it either. It has gone way too quickly and it is both exciting and sad.

I have also wanted to have another baby, but who knows. Its all a roll of the dice really.

It is so strange, i really wanted a baby the first time round, thinking all of the time that ONE would be enough, 2 or more is just craziness, or a blessing, which ever way you look at it :P
But since having little G my hormones are going crazy. I want MORE! It makes me feel so selfish and silly. I should be so grateful having a perfect little baby. Having another, when there are so many unwanted kids out there is just selfish....right??

Hopefully I will be able to post more soon xo.

10 comments:

  1. YAY!!!!! Well done you! Getting back on the blogwagon. It is hard to start a post, but once started, there is no stopping! Yay, second baby!! please lol. When the time is right. I saw first hand today that your are a GREAT mother. Don't ever think otherwise. Great seeing you today! I will see you very soon! I will come by and you can come by! It will be great!

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    1. Lovely to see you too Laura. Hopefully we can it again soon xo

      Thank you for your lovely comment.

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  2. Hey!! Nice to hear from you again!
    Hope you are keeping as well as possible with what sounds like a little yuckyness going on!
    Keep blogging whenever possible please!
    xxx

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  3. I live your blog, welcome back!

    So sorry to hear about the illness of the person you love. Hang in there & enjoy the wonderful things in your life. xx Aneets

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    1. Will do! Thanks for your comment Aneets xo

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  4. Not selfish, dear Leah! There is nothing selfish with having so much love that you want to share it with another being.

    Sending best wishes for a speedy recovery to your dear friend/family.

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    1. I think so too Hannah!

      Thanks for your comment love xo

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  5. Wow - congrats on the move ( and even more applause for doing it with a 1 year old!)

    And happy Birthday to Little G!!! Time flies doesn't it? Every time I see my little one WALK into the kitchen it freaks me out, she's growing up so fast.

    It's funny you mentioning you want another, my original plan was to conceive a sibling for V when she was around 1.5 but I am barely finding time for the hubbs (let alone the house or blogging) that a second, whilst a blessing, would probably wipe me out - so we are waiting til she is older and less reliant on me for everything (like breastfeeding etc).
    And don't feel guilty, there are many couples out there you can't conceive, and life is short, if you are lucky enough to be able to experience the miracle of pregnancy and birth yourself then be happy to, and if you would still like to provide love and a home to a baby you didn't birth, then do that. You should never feel guilty for wanting children, either your own or others.

    Sorry to hear that a loved one is currently facing a health battle - wishing them mountains of strength and healing!

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    1. OH YAY V is walking that is superb!!!! Georgi is still a little to frightened to take more than a few.

      Thank you for your lovely comment xo

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